Tough morning so far. Tough pass few days to be exact. The weather on my end has been rainy and cold. Today is the first day that we have seen the sun since last week. I don't know if that has anything to do with my mood. Friday we had freezing rain and I came in to work a bit anxious. I got through my 4 hour shift and went about my errands afterwards. During my errands I was able to steer my anxious thoughts and sensations aside and managed to see a movie in the evening despite of the uneasiness. Most of my Saturday morning was spent laying around and I managed to get up late afternoon to have dinner out with my boys and to catch my nephew's football game. During dinner I was focusing on what I "think" is dizziness and managed to give myself a little bit of a headache. I was feeling off balance during the game and still focusing on what I am feeling. It was uncomfortable but I managed to get through the evening and tried my best to have a good time.
I spent my whole Sunday laying in bed. I wasn't feeling anxious but I think after the past few days my body and my mind was exhausted and just wanted to lay around and do nothing. I did just that and I was able to have a good night's rest.
I got up this morning already dreading my day ahead. Perhaps it is what's causing my anxiousness. I have been feeling a little dizzy here and there and I'm trying really hard to divert my attention to something else besides what I am physically feeling. I truly just want to go home and curl up under the blanket but I think I'm going to try to stick this one out. I'm not going to let my anxiety get the best of me today. I'm a bit fearful of it, but I think I can calm it down. It's the physical sensation that I hate but hopefully that too will soon subside.
Going for an afternoon walk despite of feeling uneasy...I know it will make me feel better.
I hope your day is better than mine...
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Right there with you! At least the sun is shining today here too. Every day is a new challenge.
ReplyDeleteWhat state are you in?
ReplyDeleteevery day IS definitely a new challenge. One day i'm feel on top of the world the next i'm all the way at the bottom of the pit. but i manage.
ReplyDeletei'm really enjoying the power of now...I wasn't able to listen much over the weekend but i'm going to resume it today...
I'm in Illinois. the next few days should be nice so i'll take full advantage of it before the rain comes again at the end of the week..
I know. I don't listen to it everyday . I don't want to make it my life but i fit it in a couple times a week. I'm in PA with a husband and a 3 year old girl. Weather here definitely effects my anxiety which again is all in my head. I did start yoga and am really enjoying the pace of it and the meditation side of it.
ReplyDeletemy therapist suggested yoga also. I started doing some progressive muscle relaxation at home. that seems to be helping a little.
ReplyDeletecan i ask what triggered your anxiety?
I"ve actually had it my whole life but became a lot worse 10 years ago in my last semester of college. I think it was the whole "entering the real world" that triggered it. Since then it hasn't been all bad though. I've actually been good the last 5 years thanks to medicine but have been trying to change medications in the last 6 months and it has really been a hard time.
ReplyDeletethis is by far one of the hardest things i have gone through...it was a lot harder in the beginning because I didn't understand it..i didn't understand the thoughts that was coming in and the constant fear. slowly i'm learning about it and slowly accepting it. On my really bad days i tend to forget all the things that i have learned and just cry myself to sleep...i can't even imagine someone going through it most of their lives. I'm glad that you are able to manage yours and enjoy your family. your little girl is adorable by the way :) i know that things will get better for you soon...you seem to be taking good care of yourself.
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