The past week has been rather tough. It literally felt like I was back to square one. My muscles are aching, I'm feeling all sorts of weird sensations and my mind is on over drive. The worst part is I believe this all started from one single physical sensation that carried on all week and completely sensitized me. It's been a struggle trying to get out of this rut.
Last night after shutting the lights off and saying my prayer I started to scare myself. I was telling myself "I think I'm dizzy" then I actually started feeling some sensation and I thought that it would totally blow out of proportion but I managed to shut it off before it got worst and managed to have a good night's rest.
I know I'm not suppose to question things because I believe when I do start questioning I start to fight what I'm feeling therefore it causes me to have anxiety. But sometimes I can't help but question if this is going to be my life from now on...Constant battle within myself. I know I may just be saying this now because I am not at my best but it does cross my mind once in a while and it scares me.
I know that I will never get my old self back again but how can I manage the new me? Perhaps I haven't truly accepted my anxiety as I thought I have.
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Do you mind me asking if you are trying to do this medication and thereapy free?
ReplyDeleteI am only doing therapy. My therapist suggested medication to calm the physical symptoms but I wanted to try without and see how it goes. For the most part I'm okay...but the last week has been a little bit harder.
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