St. John's Wort???

I was at my follow up check up yesterday with my primary doctor. It took a long time for me to actually see my actual doctor. The other times I had to see the resident doctors and they never really made me feel comfortable. One of the resident even prescribed me some BP meds even after I pleaded to diet and exercise first and also told her about my anxiety issues. She insisted I take my prescription, took it and threw it in the garbage and started my diet and exercise. The other resident I saw never looked at me in the eye and he fidgeted so much that it made me so nervous and anxious. That same resident doctor did an EKG and told me that he saw a "little something" but provided no further explanation just told me not to worry as the "big" picture looks good. So I asked no further questions and went about my way and was anxious about my heart since.

My therapist advised me to make an appointment with my actual doctor even if it takes months to get in..(i did) and I am so glad that I did. He made me feel so comfortable and I was able to ask him all the questions that I couldn't ask the other two doctors that I saw in his office. He even showed me the EKG that the previous doctor did and explained it to me and told me not to worry. He also asked if I started taking the BP meds that the other doctor prescribed and I said no and he was actually glad that I didn't. He even offered me some advised about my anxiety and asked me if I would be willing to try St. John's Wort to help me with my anxiety. I told him that I would but I have my reservations like I have reservations with all other things. He assured me that it was all natural and okay to take.

I bought a bottle of it but not quite sure if I really want to take it or not?!???! I have been reading up on it online (I know bad bad bad) and so far I haven't read anything too negative about it....Maybe I'll try it over the weekend and see if helps me with my mood.

it's been awhile...

and today is an exceptionally tougher day. I felt a little anxious last night before leaving work and woke up a bit anxious this morning. Since I got in the office, I have been concentrating on my heart (again). I have noticed that every time I end my menstrual cycle I get into this little funk...It's probably my hormones. I wish this day was over with already. I just want to go home and bury myself under my blankets.

In the mean time I'm trying to listen to Dr. Claire Weekes to get my concentration out of my heart area and occupy my mind. Hopefully my afternoon walk will help me get through the remaining part of the day. I really need to get out of this funk. My blood pressure is slightly high this morning and I think that's making me worry as well. I hope that my check up on Tuesday will make things a lot better when the doc tells me there's nothing to worry about. Reassurance always helps alleviate my physical symptoms..so sad, but true.

I wish I had better things to write today...perhaps tomorrow will be a better day. I hope you're day is better than mine!!!